I’m a writer. It’s something that comes seamlessly for me; it’s my thing, my talent, my gift from God. It’s also the thing I struggle with. Let me explain. I’ve written multiple poems, started working on several books, completed scripts for wonderful plays and so on. Yet, the world doesn’t get to see any of my work, as it’s safely tucked away in desk drawers, or sitting idly on my computer, waiting for ransom ware to remove it from my possession. Yet again. In my mind, I’m a great underachiever in this regard. Shame on you, Kiffra!
So the other day, I found out that someone I know had written a book. Now as far as I’m aware, this someone isn’t ‘special’ and isn’t necessarily known for their writing skills. And so the comparison began. Much to my chagrin, I started to measure myself, using the newly published author’s yardstick. I also began to wonder why it is that I’m not published, when I’m so awesome and I have the best ideas ever.
As children of God, we are called upon to use our talents, and to multiply them. While I’m confident that I have been using my talents, I was annoyed with myself that I so easily began to envy someone else for their achievement. How often do we look on at those who may not be as smart, or who may not be living honestly and wonder why the same things aren’t happening for us as Christians? Envy is a slippery slope, and we can become so consumed by what’s going on in the lives of others, that we start down this slope and are unable to turn back.
Do not let your heart envy sinners, but live in the fear of the LORD always.
Have you ever found yourself wishing you had something which belongs to someone else? How do you address this envy so it doesn’t overcome you?